Maybe something is trying to get through to me but I think this is probably the third or fourth day in a row I've come across the phrase "you CAN be happy". It's such a simple quote, but it rings deep.

I've faced so many inner trials growing up. I'm not kidding, I had a rough life. A rough child hood. A rough adolescence. When I think back to all the times I threw up my hands and said to hell with life, there's nothing for me, I shake my head and laugh a bit. A kid should never lose all of their hope and I did. Multiple times in fact!

Unfortunately I still let the past bother me at times and I let current situations and difficulties drag me down. I'm fed up though. I CAN be happy damnit! And I want to be. I want to be bigger than the things I let get my spirits low. Evidence proves that every time I have a problem I either find a solution, or I have to accept that time is the only way to fix it. I get through it. So with that in mind, why do I still get so upset over things? LITTLE things?

I feel like it's time for a change. Or maybe I was changing all along and I've finally hit a noticeable check point. If I really think about it my path to self discovery has been pretty enjoyable. In my last relationship before my Husband (woot! love sayin that!) I got into it so young and stayed so long I lost myself. Four years is a long time for a kiddo to be in a romantic relationship. I really lost touch with who I was during that time. I liked everything my partner liked. But I didn't really like it at all. I was swayed by everything that was someone else. It's four years of my life where I feel like I wasn't even playing the field. I was benched. I had a lot of catching up to do when that relationship ended. Some wounds are still healing and some may not ever. But I CAN be happy. And I will. No half assing it this time. And maybe when I am finally as happy as can be, I can start making the people I love happier too.

Now I'm gonna do the happy dance...
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