As usual, the depression cycle came to an almost complete halt and I'm feeling much better these last few days. Taking a friend's advice I took advantage of feeling decent and started looking into what it would take for me to go back to school. As it turns out, it's not the huge hassle I'd been thinking it was and college is within my financial reach. Not a five star college or anything close but at this point who the hell am I to be picky anyway? It was a good idea to start thinking about school and I appreciate the advice. He knows who he is. *wave wave*


After the awkward night of meeting Cheryl in person, the girl I began pen-palling with on OkCupid, I decided to start replying to messages on there again. If there is anything I need more in my life right now, it is friendship that spans further than my computer screen. I actually got a message from an awesome girl and it's eerie how much we have in common. She's an artist, hella nerdy, and just really nice. If this goes well this could be pretty kewl.


Trying to just relax recently and enjoy feeling okay, I've been playing a lot of Mario on the Wii with Karl. You simply cannot play that game with two or more people and not be yelling and laughing your ass off the entire time. We're already about to beat it which kind of sucks... I'm not ready for it to be over yet. I also had the sudden urge to paint again yesterday (traditionally not digitally) so we went shopping and I replaced all of my old paint brushes and bought a bunch of new paint colors. I got a bunch of blank canvases too. So we'll see what happens with that. Oh.. and of course there has been lots of WoW. I'm PvPing a Warlock and PvEing as a tanking Pally. Neither character is too hard and I don't have to get frustrated. Really enjoying it so far.


For a couple of months now my hairless rat Stewie has had a pretty bad booboo on his back. It started as a scratch and Riker decided he needed to chew on it and lick it for Stewie so it keeps getting worse... then better... then worse... then better. It just won't ever go completely away so today I will be setting the boys up in two different cages for a while and trying to get Stewie's back to heal up. I tried this once before and they were so miserable and pathetic without each other I ended up caving after two days. This time I need to stick it out and I guess just give them extra attention one-on-one, which can't hurt because I don't give them enough attention as it is. My dogs are also in serious need of a bath but I don't even want to think about that right now.


I wouldn't call the way I'm feeling now "happy" but it's definitely a feeling of relief. Like I was just forced to do ten thousand jumping jacks and I'm finally allowed to rest. I wish there was way to hold on to this but it just never works out that way. No harm in trying again though. I've been gradually changing my eating and drinking habits and remembering to take my vitamins. A couple of weeks of it hardly yields a noticeable difference but I'm hoping after a month or two I might start to see some changes. The most important being my ability to sleep.. if not during the night.. then at least for an entire eight hours. It's been months since I've slept over five or six hours at once and even when I manage that much sleep it's because I'm near going on twenty four hours without any sleep at all.


Ordered a few goodies for myself from ebay. Some new earrings and the stuff to make some necklaces. Also a neat pair of high top converse which I've wanted for a long time but never can find in just plain black at the Mall here. They have every ugly color and pattern under the sun it seems except for black. The zipper on my favorite hoodie broke off a while back so I also got a new hoodie. I'm not sure anymore if I really want to go to AKon Twenty-one but I already have nearly all of my Jane Lane costume and I've been looking for the remaining pieces. It's already just a few months away so I probably need to figure out what I'm going to do soon.